If I were to say that life is not fair, it would be an unfair judgement. Coz im pretty much lucky being born in a peaceful country with daily needs provided. I guess, im just not lucky being around people.

Since young, i've never had real friends. Sure I have friends who i can joke around with. I have friends who i can just go out and have lunch. But do I have a friend that will stand by me and listen to me when im sad? i dont have a friend that i can just give a call or a text away. I've never had one in my whole entire life.

As for my family.. We're close but its as though there's an invisible line that separates all of us. We're not united. Though im thankful i have them, there are times i wish my family would be different.

Love life? I guess.. its not even part of my destiny to begin with. There are bound to be wrongs in myself.

I feel useless all the time. Worthless. Im not worth to be a friend, a daughter and even someone's other half. There are times i felt lucky, and i was always hopeful it would last forever. But that's just my life. 21 years have passed.. and i dont even know why i was even born in this world.

I wish everyime i feel like killing myself, i have the courage to do that. Without thinking of sins and the hereafter. I wish i have that ounce of courage just to pop a bottle of pills, or slash myself. I want to leave this world. Im ready. Please take me away.

♥ Friday, August 23, 2013