2013 is finally here. Im already missing 2012. There are things I wished I didnt do or I wished I'd have spent 2012 better. But everyone have their regrets and life still goes on..
I predict that this year will be a hectic year for me and him. Him going thru his final lap in RP while me... Still working on my future. But i'll know mine soon.. In a few days time.. Which I am so not looking forward.
Yes, the result. I guess I know what the results gonna be but Im still hoping that a miracle could happen. Haha oh dream on. Well, whatever it is, I have my future planned out(insyaAllah). But my mind won't stop thinking which really infuriates me.
There are many things I want to achieve this year. Many. But everytime I listed down all of it, eventually I had to cross it all out as it comes down to that one very thing which makes me think twice and more; marriage.
I have to start saving. Im supposed to start it last year but till now, I didnt. I have to stop procrastinating because this is my future. Im talking about in a year or two and yet Im still delaying and taking my own sweet time.
Anyway Im just gonna list down the things I wanted to achieve this year. Who knows I might actually achieve it despite all odds? Being a stubborn and will-get-it-no-matter-what girl, it doesn't seem impossible, right? (;
1) car license (and cont. bike license if possible)
2) another diploma or degree (still in consideration)
3) to have a picnic with my love by the beach
4) if my future career permits, i will start wearing hijab this year (insyaAllah)
5) save at least $6000 this year
6) revamp my room. New furniture. Own tv. New wall. With my own money.
7) wanna go overseas trip with friends (sadly, i dont know anyone who's up for it. If you do, please tell me. ):)
8) getting back to my 44kg figure. Or at least a 50kg.
9) buy my own car (very ambitious but im just gonna add it in)
10) invisalign (top priority)
11) visit my best friend when she's overseas for her study
Ahhhh, hopefully I get to achieve at least half of it. Oh yes, the last one. I am truly despondent on the fact that my best friend is going away. On my birthday. It doesnt actually matter when she's leaving, she still leave and that upset me. Im happy for her of course but.. The thought of her not here.. Hmmm..
I don't know how to explain. I constantly whine at my poor boy regarding this and i dont know if he understands or not. Hahaha. Its just that.. Even though i didnt meet her as often, but just knowing that she's near me is enough. And now that she's leaving, its as if i lost part of my life. Very cliche and no, im not lesbian. She's just someone i really treasure. I practically know her my whole life and only those who have the kind of friend will understand me. Im gonna miss her, very very much.
