Its been almost two months working at the student care and I must say, I really love this job to the core.

Within two months, and I already got a pay rise with lots of benefits and yet, I work just as good as a part timer.

Despite being "thrown" around between the two schools, due to training at one of the school, I learn alot about kids. It is very surprising how much the environment of the school can change the behaviour of the kids.

Though the two centres have the same system, but the kids were of two different personalities. For one, my sch would be more of the naughty, rowdy, rough ones yet smart, rich, friendly. Whereas the other sch are totally opposite with the kids being so well-behaved, respectful, quiet yet in terms of academic, they're slow in progress and there's a barrier between the teachers and the students as to how close we can get to them.

Personally, I would prefer my school despite having to shout every now and then asking the kids to keep quiet and behave. But that's the amazing things about kids, isn't it? That would have been the place where you get to enjoy being with kids. On the other hand, i wouldnt want to work with "programmed child". Though its nice to see them well disciplined and quiet, but kids are still kids and this is their time to be as childish and noisy and playful as ever.

I love both school just the same and I have my personal favourite student in each centres. But sadly, as much as I want to stay here forever, soon I'll have to leave.

Though the pay is reasonable but in the long run, especially when I have a family of my own, its going to be tough. Its kind of sucks isnt it? Just when you found a perfect job that you're willing to stay, sometimes due to a certain reason, it doesnt permit you to stay.

For now, I shall enjoy each and every moment to the fullest.

♥ Wednesday, July 18, 2012

I look back at my life and I see happiness. I see my family that have always been there for me and love me unconditionally despite the occasional arguments and disagreements.

I see my friends though not alot but i have those few important ones that stay by me through my ups and downs.

I see my love. For he is one of the reason my life is a shade of wonderful colours when it used to be shaded gray and black. For he is one of the reason too, that i found my happiness.

But i look at my life again. Something is missing. Something doesnt look right. It seems incomplete. And I wonder what.

Then I realised. It's myself. I've got a great family, precious friends and amazing love. But I am missing in the picture. I haven't learn to love myself and feel appreciate to what I have in life.

I'm still stuck at somewhere I was not supposed to be. The past.

♥ Monday, July 16, 2012