Sometimes, you know the best thing to do is to let go. But for some reason, you can't. Maybe you don't love him anymore or maybe you were just in denial, but a part of you just don't want to fight for the relationship anymore. Then, there's another part of you.. screaming at you to hold on. Its that "lonely heart" of yours. Because you know that, when you let him go, you have to go through the painful stages of heartbreak and being independent all over again. Those sleepless nights accompanied by your tears for as long as your heart hurts.
People say that you can always love all over again. Starting right back from the start. But that would have been a lie. When you love someone, you'll always love them, no matter what. The question here is whether you're still willing to fight for the relationship or not. People get tired over time due to constant arguments, mostly of the same damn thing, and hence they walk away reasoning with the most simple reason; by saying they don't love the person anymore. People get bored with their partners prolly because of their hectic schedule or boring dates or whatever, and feel there's no way they're gonna wait and wait. They turn their backs and walk away by saying "I don't love you anymore".
As for me, it's only for the best of him. A part of me want this, because our relationship was good. A part of me don't, because I'm just.. tired. I'm tired because I realised that he have stop fighting for us for quite awhile. I realised that he's not the guy who'll try to make things okay again. I know I can't always expect him to do it. But it's been awhile. For I have learnt to let go my past, don't I deserve the second chance? For I have learnt to love him with my whole heart now, must he still be the guy that is so cold and don't care about us?
He would have willingly let go of something, just to be with me in the past. But now, it's as though Im demanding his time. So now I want to know. What is best for him? Should I stay or should I go?
♥ Friday, March 15, 2013
