Friday, September 30, 2011

Hello! Fyi, Im blogging using the iphone apps. I wonder how it would turns out like. It's been awhile since i've update anything.

Okay, just a short one since i am lazy to type using my phone. I swear I hate sms-ing and talking on the phone. I dont know why, I just do. Maybe i should invent a much smaller version of keyboards for phone. Chey.

Anywayyyy, I just got back from a 4D3N Nomad camp at Ipoh few days ago. Though it wasn't as far as Beijing or Australia but I wished the camp could have lasted much longer. I had so much fun doing the activities. I am reaply up to something new so this camp kinda perks me up. Except for the high elements because Im afraid of heights but once I got the hang of it, Im actually fine. Haha. New friends made, and despite the awkward feeling of being one of the "oldies", I think some of the juniors are much more wiser than I am.

On the way back, I fell sick. Totally not cool. I vomitted once before dinner and while reaching the JB checkpoint and my pants was all greased. But I am truly touched with people in the bus B, who constantly asked if I was okay and actually cleaned up my mess. Gosh, I felt like a kid. Hahaha.

Now, I am all better. But my eye is the problem now. Visited a clinic and I was less than 10 seconds in the room. Totally wasted my consultation fees but Im more than half glad coz I dont have to entertain the unnecessary questions. I really dont like clinics not because I am scared but I feel lost when I face the doctor. Which is the reason why throughout my 19 years of life, i avoid going to the clinics unless i was really sick and my mum would do all the talking. Yes, thats how lost i am. Today was my very FIRST time visiting the doctor without my mum. How thankful I was when I practically dont have to say anything.

Okay, let's just hope im all better for school next week. After almost 8 months of not going to school, the feeling is just undescribedable! On a positive side of course. I really love school. I dont understand why many doesn't! Tsk.

For this last sem, Im going all out be it in study or any events/volunteerings by rp. How i wish i have a friend who is as enthusiastic as me. Sad life, its as though im all alone in this interest. Hah. Okay, my fingers are all numb. Shall blog again soon.

Till im back again. (:

♥ Friday, September 30, 2011

Monday, September 12, 2011

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other...Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever”

Many wished to have an opposite sex best friend. Someone whom we can joke around, talk basically about anything under the sun, having a shoulder to cry on, just by being yourself and the best thing about doing all this with a best friend who is opposite sex of you is, they know exactly how to treat you the way you want to be in love.

Because that's what people want in love. Someone who they can totally be themselves without having to care a single thing and still be happy just spending time together. Perhaps, its more to that. There are many great things about it. Like how you can have problem about the girl/guy you dated and your best friend could give you some useful advise just because they know how to be in that person's shoe.

However, one tend to forget that being in this kind of friendship, takes a lot of risk. It's not easy as it sounds like.

Having an opposite best friend simply means that you have to be prepared mentally and physically. Knowing that when you're with him/her outside, you might be judged differently. Prepared that it is much harder to find someone special unless that person is willing to accept your friendship with open arms. But the hardest of all is, to fall in love or being loved by your best friend. Coz one simple thing like that can totally change the whole thing. Its either the friendship will begin into something new, or it will just end like that.

It's not easy to stop yourself from falling in love. When love decides to take place, it just will. No warnings, no stopping. & its much harder when it's only one hand clapping instead of two. Things will get awkward and even when both tried to stay, at some point of time, one will let go.

Some are lucky enough to get a bestfriend who is the same person whom they love. While some are not. Some are lucky enough to get a bestfriend who stays despite everything, but honestly, I can safely say that no bestfriends or maybe just a few of opposite sex can last till lifetime.

I've been there done that. I was being judged when I was in a relationship. I was still judged after I broke up. One fell in love, another one didn't. Things were well only for a moment, but not forever.

I miss him, yeah I do.

Just Being Honest,

♥ Monday, September 12, 2011

Sunday, September 11, 2011

"You can't live your life for other people.

You've got to do what's right for you, even if it hurts some people you love."

It can be very tiring having to live up to people's expectation; especially our loved ones. & I wasn't talking about having to please one person. It would have been much easier trying to please one but imagine having to divide yourself catering to at least gazillions of people, including strangers in life. Yes, strangers.

It is very upsetting to see your dearest one being hurt because you can't fulfill their hopes. Some kept silence but there are people who would show their disappointment as vividly as clear water.

Know what annoys me? Seeing people getting paranoid of trying to please just about everyone around them. Apparently, they failed to realize that they have their own life to be happy too. And while they are busy trying to make everyone around them happy, they forget just who to be thankful for at the end of the day. They forget to spend few minutes of 5 times a day to the One whom they should be worrying trying to please.

I am not one of the pious ones who seek to Him every single day and pray. But for what I know, I am thankful for every single day for I am still given the chance to live. From Him I get my happiness and to Him, I shall return those moments with prayers.

I do not have the slightest worried of not being able to please people around me. Just disappointment when I disappoint them. I tried my best not to upset anyone but I know my limits of having to make everyone happy. I also know my positions of expecting people to please me. Though at times, it hurts when I expect someone to do or say something just to make me feel happy, but I understand that we are, afterall, humans who are helpless and cannot escape from mistakes.

The World would have been a better place without these people who complaint of not being satisfied with their life, people who are constantly worried trying to spend their time to please everyone. It would have been a better place if one would simply stand up for their rights to make themselves happy and also just to please the only One.

It would have been better, wouldn't it?

Just Being Honest,

♥ Sunday, September 11, 2011

Thursday, September 8, 2011

Aren't my new blogspot just so awesome? It is somehow similar to my old blogspot. AND IT'S SUNFLOWER. Teehee. It is still under construction though; especially under my "profile" link. Still trying to figure out what should I put in it. I have lost the touch of editing the HTML and I had to edit over and over again to make it as it is now.

I honestly don't find the need of a blog since I'm likely gonna keep most of the things to myself, only sharing mild things like my two cents worth of thoughts, my views in certain things etc. I am just addicted to editing and beautifying my blog, thats why. Onsugar was no fun as I cannot edit the page as how I like it. But it was very simple and easy to use which was the reason why I decided to use onsugar once upon a time.

But I finally made up my mind to move back to blogger. This is home, truly. Haaaah. It took me awhile to come up with my blog url. Guess where I got it? Hah, none can figure it out. It was inspired by someone who had exactly the same url. Of course, only the bright ones will know how to find the answer. HAHA.

One last note, whatever I speak is highly from my personal point of view. Whatever I share, Im just being honest about what I think and feel. That's it for first blog post.

♥ Thursday, September 08, 2011