It's just like a repeated scene. It's like how you watch your favourite movie; once is just not enough. Except that this time, it's not the scene that I ever wanted to see again, yet it happened. With the same girl, different guy.

I heard of this quote, "You never know what you have, until it's gone." The thing is, I know what I have. I've always known what I have. Yet, I always seems to lost the best.

Tell me how do you make someone who have lost the love he once feel, to fall in love all over again with the same person? Possible, yes. But it is also not possible that he'll lose it once again in the long run.

I'd been there. He lost it. And I tried so hard to let him found the love back. I did everything I could, to the extend that I let go my ego, I forgot my about self worth. But where did it lead to in the end?

I regret. I'm learning to live life without regret. But this time, I regret. I just lost someone who meant the world to me. I may not have said the three words to him, I may not have shown him my affection to the fullest, I may not treat him my best, but he's the guy that makes my world colourful all over again.

He may not be the one that decides to leave. But I dont want him to find it and lost the love again in the future. Not with me.

I need someone who will love me right from the start to end. Despite my flaws, despite my imperfections, his love is still there.

For now, I guess.. it's just me, myself and I. Back to... the past.

♥ Monday, May 28, 2012