fly me to a field of sunflower.

Saturday, November 26, 2011

"Sometimes people come into your life & you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are & or who you want to become You never know who these people may be (possibly your roommate, neighbor, professor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know at the very moment that they will affect your life in some profound way.and sometime things will happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, & unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming these obstacles that you would have never realized your true potential, strength, will power, or heart.

Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by mean of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness & sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul. Without this small test, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe & comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.

The people that you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you will become Even the bad experiences are learned from. In fact, they are the most poignant ones.

If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart. If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but because in a way, they are teaching you to love & how to open your heart & eyes to things.

Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment & take from those moments everything you could possibly can for you may never be able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before & actually listen... Let yourself fall in love again, break free, and set your sights high. Hold your head up because you have every right too.

Tell yourself that you are a great individual & believe in yourself. For if you don't believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you. You can make your life anything you wish.....Create your own life & then go out & live it with absolutely NO REGRETS. Most importantly, if you love someone tell him or her, for you NEVER know what tomorrow may have in store. And learn a lesson in life each day you live.

Today is the tomorrow you were worried about yesterday.... Was it worth it?"

♥ Saturday, November 26, 2011

Sunday, November 20, 2011

Every girl needs a man. You know, the kind that’ll treat you right. The kind that has enough respect for you & is willing to change, just to be with you. The kind that searches for you with all his heart & that can be trusted in a room full of beautiful girls. Every girl needs a man who won’t cheat on her because he knows she’s got all that he wants & needs already. He won’t mind calling you early in the morning just to say good morning or late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning song & tell you a bedtime story or talk to you until you fall asleep. This guy will be the kind that’ll do anything for you, even if it’s to just go to the store & buy you your favorite kind of candy. He would defend & fight for you & wouldn’t bail on you for his friends when you need him most. The kind that won’t leave you lonely & wondering; the one that calls you surprisingly, even if he’s out with his friend, to just tell you that he loves & misses you a lot. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around & tell them, “She’s the one”. The kind that appreciates you for the things you do for him, even if they’re little. The ones that actually thank you for the little love notes you leave him, waits for you when you’re falling behind, & opens doors for you. Every girl needs a man who will take you out on dates once in awhile & buys you flowers just because it’s a Wednesday. The kind of guy that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him. He would remind you that he loves you & that he’s happy to be with you, just in case you forget. The kind that just doesn’t want kisses & hugs, but to actually be loved & to love. You deserve a guy that will call you beautiful instead of hot, who kisses your forehead when you’re down, tells you to be strong & to not cry, & when you do cry, he’d cry with you when times are hard. The kind that will go through thick & thin with & for you. The kind that just loves you for who you are & not for who you aren’t and loves you because you’re his favorite girl in the whole wide world.

♥ Sunday, November 20, 2011

Friday, November 18, 2011

To my dearest Nursyafiqah Binte Awang, let me start my longwinded rants with this quote,

A good friend is a connection to life - a tie to the past, a road to the future, the key to sanity in a totally insane world. ~Lois Wyse

I don't know why I chose that quote over many others but somehow, it relates to us. You're definitely a connection to my life. (:

You may have read the same wishes, the same long rants over the past 10 years from me but I will never get tired of this. Hahaha!

Someone once told me this, every human in this world will be given a friend match make from heaven. I wonder how possible is it that we actually have "friendsmate" (instead of soulmate) in this Earth. But the moment someone told me that, the first thing that comes to my mind is.. you.

Im not being cheeky or mentel when I told you that. HAHAHA. But honestly, I seriously think you are the one. It's not because of the number of years that we have known each other but its because.. throughout my life, I've lost if not many, a few of the most important person(s) in my life. But in every arguments that we faced, in every troubles I make, you still stay and showed no intention of going away.

Thank you Nursyafiqah, for being the best friend I can always lean on every second of my life. On your special day, I may not be physically with you to wish and hug and even kiss you a very happy birthday, but remember that I'm always in your heart and mind! Cheyyy, like matair ah. HAHAHA.

Last but not least, I want to say this. I believe that you are the most beautiful girl I ever met in my whole life. In every encounters of my life, I've met girls who have beautiful features, I've met girls with beautiful heart, but you are beautiful just the way you are. You are perfect in your own way. Don't ever let yourself down by looking down on yourself.

A boyfriend is just an experience to love and be loved. It makes you happy when you are in a happy relationship but it hurts you, stabs you, scarred and wound your pure heart when you're broken hearted. If I was given a wish, I wished I was in your shoe, never get to experience how love hurts because it's a feeling nobody will ever want feel in their life.

Having a boyfriend isn't something to be proud of or to be happy about. It comes with a responsibility, a lot of patience, a lot of understanding, a lot of sacrifices and more. It's not easy as how it looks like. Sure it's nice to have someone that you can count on to, someone to rant about your days and received surprises, but it's not worth the pain if he's not the one for you.

One day, you'll meet him. Don't give up. Continue to live your hopes up. When the time is right, when He decides that you are ready, you will, in someway or another, intertwined your path with him. Do not worry for He won't let you be alone in this world. InsyaAllah, it's worth your wait and I'm sure He is keeping the best for you.

For now, all that matters is me! HAHAHA. Yes, who say best friend can't be treated like in a relationship? You're my favourite sweetheart afterall. Hehehe. I love you, aloooooot. :D

Have a blast 19th birthday alright!

♥ Friday, November 18, 2011

Sunday, November 13, 2011

Couples broke up and never get back together. Friends who used to be so close are enemies right now. People leave, we let it be. Humans give up after failing couple of times. No, I'm not talking about the sadness of life. It's the time. Whenever bad things happen, people usually blame it on time. Ever heard of people saying it's too late to do this or that? Ever heard people saying I wish I still have the time to do it? Ever heard of people giving up because it's a waste of time? Yes, it's all about the time.

But what we people don't realised is, time is just an excused for us. Time doesn't change when people's life change. Time doesn't stop when our feelings fade. It's never too late to mend something broken. It's never too late to fight for something we want. It's never, ever, too late to do anything. Time's speed doesn't change. It's just us feeling that time is going too fast or too slow.

It's a nature for humans to blame on time when something in life doesn't go right. People make mistakes and the forgivers might find it too late to start all over again with that person. Truth is, you have all the time to start all over again. As long as both is still alive, time doesn't stop from both of you to start all over again. What's stopping it is yourself, your feelings. Best friends are no longer close because time doesn't permit them to be together always. The truth is, its us not making an effort to make the time for them. People walked out of our life and we let it be because it's too late to make them stay. Truth is, you still have that time to pull them back, to make them stay. Its either you not making the effort, or that person's no longer want to be in your life. Humans gave up after trying few times because they think it's a waste of time. Truth is, if you have the willing to do something, willing to achieve it, it's never a waste of time.

Today's gone, but you wake up tomorrow. Still breathing, still alive. You still have time. What is it that is too late? It's never too late unless you're no longer on this Earth. While you're still breathing right now, still able to go through yet another day of life, you have the time; time to undo your mistakes, time to make a difference, time to start all over again.

♥ Sunday, November 13, 2011

Saturday, November 12, 2011

For those who have yet to listen to the song What Are Words by Medina, by all means, you should. It's a beautiful song with a meaningful lesson of love behind it. For the ones who can't capture the meaning of this song, well.. this is a summary of it..

"A guy who proposed to his girlfriend of __ years (8 I think) but one day his girlfriend met with an accident which caused her to suffer brain damage and severe injuries. Unlike any typical guys, he did NOT leave her. Instead, he hold on to his words of staying by her side through thick and thin."

It's a song of the real meaning of true love. Yes, like what the lyrics stated;

What are words

If you really don't mean them

When you say them

What are words

If they're only for good times

Then they don't

When it's love

Yeah, you say them out loud

Those words, They never go away

They live on, even when we're gone

Mens and Womens should really think of what came out from their mouth. Promises, an oath, expressing feelings, is not merely something that can be treated as a joke. What are they if all the words are a facade? Do they still hold any meaning if it was just an empty words?

Truth to be told, we have eyes to see our surroundings. Divorce, break ups, fights and such happened in this world because "words" are the most powerful invention of all kinds. To think logically, I believe that such situations could have been avoided if only people would mind what they say.

For the fact that we know what is our limits and how much we can do, we could have known better what we can give to the person. If we really can't sacrifice death for them, it's easy as A B C to admit that we can't. But humans are humans. We gave empty promises, facade words to the people we love just because at that very moment we shared special bonding and were to afraid to lose it. We said it merely to please them, to convince them for something unknown. Would it have been love?

Like any other humans, perhaps I too, have did the same mistake. I would have simply promised my mum I would clean the house but I end doing nothing. I could have promised myself to study harder each time a new semester starts but I see myself still slacking. But for all I know, i've never taken my love for granted on my family, friends or anyone special. When I promised something big, especially when it comes to love, I very well hold on to it. That's me. How about you guys? (:

♥ Saturday, November 12, 2011

I would say that this video is amazing. The stages were rather accurate in general, though not definite. Some may have gone through the same exact thing, for example, me. Some, well.. they're the lucky ones who are still friends after the break up or perhaps, manage to salvage the relationship before it went on to the last stage.

We may have not realised these "stages" that were happening in out relationship. From being so happy till to a point we get so "comfortable" with each other that our feelings tend to fade throughout times. It's only when everything ends awry, then we started to realise.

I guess that’s really quite sad. How someone you thought was the girl/boy of your dreams, someone you wished you could spend every waking moment of your life with, someone you were once so comfortable with, could just somehow, in some way, slip away from you. And once that happens, it becomes so difficult to retrieve the situation.

People might say that perhaps it was for the best, that it wasn’t going to work out, that you weren’t compatible in the end. And they might be right. But more often than not, it’s just the lack of effort, or as one line in the video went, “someone stops trying when feelings ain’t as strong as before”. I suppose the bottom line is to never take things for granted, whether in love, or in a friendship.

It might be even harder to take when your ex has so obviously moved on, and there you are, still stuck hanging onto the remnants of what once used to be. When you replay certain moments over and over again in your mind, and wish you had done things differently instead of just brushing things off.

I would like to say I'm over it. Well.. I guess a part of me did. But there are nights during which the memories come back to haunt me, and the flashbacks triggered by familiar places we once went, or the activities that we used to enjoy together.

The break up taught me a valuable lesson. Never to take anyone for granted. Be it family, friends or lover. Humans are humans, and we tend to give up at times when we felt like it's not worth in our life anymore. It's really sad that we're back to being strangers in each other's eye after we've gone through a hell lot of things together. Sometimes, I wonder why this happened.

But truth to be told, promises are meant to be broken, words are meant to be lied. I guess, there's a reason why we are like this.

“I think that if life separates us and we end up in totally different places, I will always remember when our past aligned for this period of time. And I will be thankful for that and hope that where ever you are, you’ll be thankful too. And I think that is the best we can wish for.”

♥ Saturday, November 12, 2011

More often than not, people who have best friends, only think how grateful they are to depend on these few for the rest of their lives. & people who have boyfriend, would be so thankful to have met him and depend on him through every single moments of their life. But they failed to see the others who have made their life, in some way or another, meaningful too.

Im talking about friends. Not besties or special friend or anything major. Just friends, including the hi bye friends. And these "friends", they don't really get much thanks as compared to the best ones.

It's very typical to see people posted on facebooks, twitters or by words of mouth that friends don't really matter as long as they have the few ones to depend on. Truthfully, I must agree that it is not a matter of quantity but quality. But that doesn't mean you have to stop making friends once you've found the best.

Throughout my entire life, I've met a little too many friends who came and go. & that includes people whom I treated as best friends. What I'm trying to say is, even the best can left so why not we just make friends whenever we can.

& when the best left, who are we left with? Who are the ones we could depend on? Well, usually we'll turn to the so-called "just friends" and confide in them. & when they treated us nice and all, we declare them as "best friends". Typical isn't it?

Now, that's the thing. People should be thankful to every single person in their life. Not just the best or the closest ones, but each and every individual who have entered in your life. Somehow, they did play a part to make you smile (well, when you saw them, at least you smiled and waved hello, am I right?).

Well, I must say I am glad that I can depend on my best/close friends whenever I am sad. But whenever they're not there beside me, I have friends to depend on too. & I am very thankful for that.

♥ Saturday, November 12, 2011

Sunday, November 6, 2011

To my dearest babygirl, Nur Fatin, I would like to wish a very happy birthday! Finally, you're 19. Like omg, we're so oldddd rightttt?! ): Well, do enjoy your last teen years alright? Spend it wisely, happily, with your loved ones.

It's been years of our friendship, through good and bad times, I am glad you still stay in my life. Though at times, I may have forgotten about us, or tend to neglect you in our friendship, just so you know, I have always treasured our friendship and you're one of those people whom I won't forget for the rest of my life.

You're 19 now, 365 days left to reach the digit 2, which isn't very long at all. It simply means that our time have come to an end in school. We'll be working adults very soon. Unless, we choose to further our study. Whatever road we choose to go, whether we'll be on the same path or have to be separated, I hope we will never forget each other.

We shall not forget our dreams to open up a cafe. HAHA! Well, we don't know what the future might bring us to. But I will always pray for the best of your life. Knowing that you're happy with him, brings joy to me. Coz it hurts me to see you down and brokenhearted at one period of time. Whatever obstacles you faced with him, don't ever give up. Because it's a lifetime chances and I know you can faced it because you're a strong person.

Last but not least, please meet up soon alright? There's a lot of things I've yet to share about my life. And yes, yours too. Have a blast on your special day with the kambings alright? HAHAHA. Oh yeah, selamat hari raya aidil adha to you too. Love you tintin! <3

♥ Sunday, November 06, 2011

Friday, November 4, 2011

Sometimes, we chase for something that is beyond our reach that we fail to see the ones that are directly infront of our eyes. We have always wanted the best, but we never realised that sometimes, what we have now is actually the best for us. We are constantly craving for better prospects but we forget, that life is not about being on top.

Life is like a cup of coffee. Given an assortments of cups; expensive or cheap, plain or exquisite.. we tend to choose what looks beautiful to us, what looks like the best to us. But what difference does those cup makes to the coffee? It simply doesn't change the quality of the coffee. In most cases, the reason is because it's expensive while some cases, it hides what we drink.

What all of us really wanted was the coffee, not the cup. But we consciously went for the best cups, and we eyed others cup, just to see who had the best one.

Life is like the coffee; while the cups are what we own.. money, status, job etc.. They are just tools to hold and contain life. The type of cup we hold does not define nor change the quality of life we live.

Sometimes, by concentrating only on the cup, we fail to enjoy the coffee. It's all about savoring every sips of the coffee, and not the cups. Likewise, as what we always heard; The happiest people don't have the best of everything, they just make the best of everything.

Live simply.

Speak kindly.

Care deeply.

Love generously.

I was drinking coffee by the way. Just random. HAHAHA.

♥ Friday, November 04, 2011