I refused to open up even when others said I should give it another try. Only after a year, I have to fulfill my promises. I am trying. I don't know who or when will I really meet someone. The thing is, I don't want to expect a lot and ends up in disappointment. Having to experience heartbroken makes me a cautious person now. I have a lot of doubts and I guess, because of that I need a clear, a very convincing feeling from the person. This time, there's no more time to play guessing game anymore. There's no more waiting game. Coz, this time, once I think you have no bits of interest towards me, I'm gonna walk away.

It might sound ridiculous, very unfair to some. But I am protecting myself. I am guarding my heart.

I have been blabbering nonsense again. Probably because I feel disappointed that I didn't do my best in RJ. Or merely because, I am just in a state where I don't know what the hell is going on in my life.

Hahahahaha. Okay seriously dian? I need to think of a topic that is worth reading and involved lots of thinking instead of emotions. K la bye.