A million thoughts running in the mind, waiting to be let out, to be heard. It's been awhile. In fact, it's been too long. My secrets, my desires, my wishes, my dreams, my goals, my opinions - everything. it's been long enough being kept within myself. It's impossible to be told, but it badly wanted to be heard.

An example as simple as my wants can be such a huge burden in my life. Like how badly you wanted to get that particular thing or someone, but a friend or a family member of yours was against it, and you have to think twice whether to still go for it or not. Things that revolves in life are also such a pain in the ass. Like how you deal with things, your reactions, every single step you take, every single movement you make, is being judged. When certain things make you feel uneasy, how you want to run away or avoid from certain people, or how you cannot control your emotional feelings, but some expects you to face it, to overcome it just because they don't have problems with it. Well, nobody can understand anybody.

I just don't understand life, or perhaps the human beings. If it's okay to accept one's living be it whether they're rich or poor, or accepting one's look be it that they're ugly or beautiful, why can't one accept a person's feeling, thoughts or desire?

Being around with humans that judge, have likes and dislikes, who indirectly directs my life, its hard. Having people who can simply tell you not to do this and that despite you yearning to have it and you don't do it just to please the person. Having people who tells you things that might silent you from sharing your thoughts just because you don't want to be judged differently. Life is hard having people around you, but you have to live with it. Thats why it's important to know when to keep your mouth shut or you might just end up in the wrong place.

Just being honest,

D.